I'll paint you a picture, if you write me a song : )

So I've been thinking...
There's a lot I don't know about myself.
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whatever, forget punctuation.
this is me, completely raw.
i don't understand how i just can't figure out the deepest of my thoughts.
i lack focus. i lack determination.
but then i look at other people, and realize that maybe i'm really not that out of focus.
annnd then i look at other other people and see how out of focus i am.
role models. i have a lot of them, and all for different reasons.
because none of them are completely perfect, but there sure are parts of their lives that are near perfect.
but that's just how God made us, perfect in some ways.
in all the other ways we need to strive to be like Him who is completely perfect.
there are so many things i want to do in my life, but that means i really have to work on those parts that aren't near perfect at all.
i'll never be near as wonderful as God... but thats okay. He doesn't ask for perfection, He just asks that we try.
when we stumble we need to get back up.
but when i stumble, i like to sit there for a little while and really examine how much that fall hurt. then i can't brush myself off as fast.
i reflect. i live in the past. i make doubt my home.
that makes it so much easier to fall again when your eyes are on the ground where you fell, because if you don't keep your head up, you can't see whats in front of you.
ahhh... i have to end this short.
but there are still sooo many more thoughts up there.