and it was really awesome.
We went to the Front Porch to watch Kyle Lacy and the Miss Celka Ojakangas (whom I haven't seen in a million year)
and for once in a really, really long time I felt really relaxed.
I've been so busy and stressed that I really haven't had the time to think straight at all.
Just standing there listening and watching them made me completely unwind and let me look at my life a little.
Though I've been really busy,
I really haven't.
Nothing I do ever seems to be productive anymore.
I never think,
I just do.
I want so, so, so much more in this life,
but I just can't.
Can't what? I'm not sure.
I keep telling myself, I'll do this when this happens.
No. Now. I need to start now, not matter what.
I can't hold myself back any longer.
I'm going to start being more productive,
less lazy,
and think more.
But in order to do so, I really need to keep someone on my mind the most.
My Savior.
I tend to forget Him all too often.
I'm a human that struggles and is imperfect in every single way,
but that doesn't matter at all to Him.
Which is so completely, utterly, magnificently... captivating.
I'm going to take a break from myspace/facebook for awhile.
They just take up too much of my time,
because I never get off. (lame, I know)
I'll get on blogger,
cause I enjoy my one-way conversations with myself. (:
Ahh.. butterscotch.
2 comments:
Can I join you in your one way converstation with yourself? Although I guess that defeats the whole thing..
But I know what you're talking about, nothing I do really has any meaning. Sure it's fun at the time, but does it really matter even a week from then?
Of course you can join my one-way, pointless conversation with myself.
Go ahead. (:
Let's defeat the purpose.
Yeah. It makes me depressed sometimes. I want eternal benefits... not even for myself so much. I don't know. Bah.
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